A CERTAIN LIFE WITH A CERTAIN MESSAGE
(Available to purchase on-line at www.Waterstones.com and Amazon)
Below are 16 sample pages of the above book to include 4 of 5 experiences of the "power" of God which occurred in 1988.
Another incident that occurred during those first few months at the church, followed a decision I had made to memorise some verses of the bible that spoke of God and Christ or the Holy Spirit dwelling inside me. I felt I needed a greater sense of this fact. I thought this might assist me in being more aware of His presence and power dwelling in me, and help me live the Christian life better. I had taken a friend with me to the 6 pm Sunday church meeting. The visiting preacher had finished teaching and was beginning to spontaneously minister to, and pray for, individuals in the congregation. The preacher was prophesying (giving a message he believed to be inspired by God) over someone at the front of the congregation, and I was to the rear about 20 feet away. However, as this prophecy was going on, some power within my abdomen began to throb imperceptibly. The throbbing gradually increased in strength and size within me and as it grew it became very beautiful and I literally “fell in love” with it and cried. The words “for our God is a consuming fire” also became a reality at that time, for it seemed that if the power inside me had increased any further, it would have indeed been too great and consumed me.
“It is the spirit that quickeneth, the flesh profiteth nothing: the words
that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life”
We all must read the “word”, the Bible. It gives us a message. It gives us “understanding”. It gives us instruction. It guides us. God speaks to us through it. It gives us “life”. It gives us access to the “power of God” therefore it gives us all types of “healing”. It teaches us about “perfect” love and “perfects” our love. It tells us, gives us, the “Truth”.
The following poem (Page 85) was written after the first physical experience that occurred to me at a church I had begun to attend regularly in London.It was one of 5 experiences and these all happened within a 6 month period. I was very new to an Evangelical church and at the time had no thought, nor particular desire or awareness, of the physical experiences that sometimes appears to occur to those that attend them, brought about, it is implied, by the Holy Spirit.For a year prior to this, I had been seeking God in prayer and making major changes in my life. Having been established financially during this time, which enabled me to work part-time for a while and therefore to attend most church services regularly. I started getting up in the morning at 5am to pray for one hour and then studied the bible during my free time in the afternoon. At the church, there was a lot of emphasis on receiving the “Holy Spirit” and praying in tongues, which is one of the “gifts” of the“Spirit”. At every service I heard this type of prayer both during the general service and when others prayed individually. The sound of this prayer seemed like “nonsense” and made no sense. The preacher often called people forward to the front if they wished to “receive” the Holy Spirit or “give” their lives to Christ. I went forward to receive the Holy Spirit but nothing significant happened. However, I knew I could make these noises with, or without (I thought), the Holy Spirit, so one night I knelt and prayed at home alone, saying to God that if this type of prayer was of Him then I would pray this way also. I then made the same sounds that I had heard in church. As I prayed by making these sounds, not using normal words or my understanding (thinking), the prayer did seem to somehow touch me inside and “feed” or “touch” my heart as it were, so I continued with it.Thereafter, in my early morning prayer I would pray 30 minutes with normal words and 30 minutes in “tongues”.
Following this, I began attending the weekly all-night prayer meetings whilst others went out evangelising. On the second or third time I attended these meetings, there were about 10 people present. At approximately midnight, one of the leaders gave out a loud call in “tongues”. I was just standing and praying nearby, completely unaware and anticipating nothing, but this call somehow triggered something inside of me and I was suddenly not able to stand and I fell to my knees as an amazing incredible power throbbed into my hands and feet. I was by this time lying on the floor and crying, not through fear or pain however, I just “was”.. Everyone was still praying around me and I can remember trying to get up, but instead sort of dragged my way to where someone was sitting at the stage platform step area. Eventually that person helped me to stand, although I was still crying at the time. As I began to recover and we gathered together properly to pray again, one of the others present began speaking and I suddenly realised he was speaking and pointing at me. At first I could not understand what was being said as he had a strong accent, but it seemed that God was speaking to me, through him, and I fell to my knees out of respect at this possibility. The only words I heard clearly and can remember were:
“I have chosen you”
“I have set you as watchman”
“Do not run away from the work I have given you to do
”Please note that we are all called and if we heed that call, we can be chosen. I am also no better than anyone else, probably worse than most, but God can use those who make themselves available to Him and give Him opportunity, by believing Him.
HE WHO IS, THAT IS, TRUTH, POWER, COUNSELLOR
REDEEMER, SAVIOUR…THE WORD,
WHICH IS LIFE.
WHO INHIBITED MY BREATH
CAST DOWN MY STRENGTH
UNABLE TO STAND
FELL TO THE GROUND……CRIPPLED MY HANDS
WITH POWER BEYOND SIGHT.
CAST OUT A SPIRIT
THAT CRIPPLED MY LIFE
THAT TWISTED INSIDE
AS IT COURSED FROM MY MOUTH….AND NOW I KNOW
DO NOT DOUBT
THE LIVING GOD.
“He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them,
he it is that loveth me;
And he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him,
and manifest myself to him…….If a man love me, he will keep my
words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and
make our abode with him”
(John 14: 21-23)
(Manifest = to show without doubt to the mind or eye)
GOD IS WAITING FOR US
The following are a collection of bible verses and message that I believe were brought to my attention by the Holy Spirit, as I was studying the bible a few days prior to a Christian residential meeting I was due to attend.The Sunday evening had arrived and I was experiencing a great inner agitation. I felt I was meant to share the message with the people at the weekend meeting earlier that day and then with the congregation on my return to London that evening. However, I had been unable to say or do anything, through shyness and lack of confidence and the doubt that it was God that had given me a valid message. I was a not special or clever in any way and we can so easily contrive such possibilities to suit our own ends and sense of importance. However,the inner agitation increased greatly throughout the teaching that Sunday evening in London, which, coincidentally, was about acting upon what we believed God was calling us to do. Towards the end of the teaching, as the Preacher closed for prayer and I realised I had missed all opportunity of sharing the message, I inwardly told God that if He wanted the message to go out, He would have to do something. Shortly after this desperate inward call to God, something inside me gathered in strength and intensity, to the extent that I had to shift my sitting position slightly. As I did so, I spoke in a “tongue” with great boldness and strength that was not my own. I was so embarrassed to be doing this amongst the silence of the congregation,that my mind was begging my body, or God, to stop. At some point I was able to stop and the Preacher then gave the interpretation of the message, or the “tongue”, to the congregation. We should consider, when deciding if this was a true message and experience from God. That I had no personal communication with the preacher prior to the meeting, nor did he know me, for he was visiting from another church. Yet that evening he taught on “the bride” and Christ’s return to earth, he also taught on Ezekiel. The message and bible verse that I felt I had been given to share were about the new heaven and the new earth, and Christ’s return to earth. The last and most important verse was from Ezekiel 12: 21-28.The similarity of the words and phrases used in Ezekiel 12:21-28 are so similar to those used in the interpretation given by the preacher that evening, “that which I say shall come to pass” and the word “vision” were repeated several times, both in the bible verse and the interpretation, and I feel this is a coincidence to great to be ignored.I also believe that the repetition of the first three phrases “I have spoken to you” in the interpretation, were particularly to confirm to us that it was God who spoke.
MESSAGE TO ME, BELIEVED TO BE INSPIRED BY THE HOLY SPIRIT
As we have desires and a vision that we pray for and work towards,so does God. His is the new heaven and new earth, and to be with us.The angel has already spoken to the world to preach to the nations and to worship God, therefore praise, worship and preaching are abounding. The sickle has already gone forth. The knowledge and the power of God in the earth will escalate quickly and He will come quickly. Ezekiel 12: 21-28 speaks for itself.
BIBLE VERSES BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION (I BELIEVE BY THE HOLY SPIRIT) DURING THE WEEK PRIOR TO THIS INCIDENT AND TO BE USED IN CONJUNCTION WITH THE ABOVE MESSAGE.
"And I saw another angel fly in the midst of heaven, having the everlasting gospel to preach unto hem that on dwell on the earth, and to every nation, and kindred, and tongue, and people. Saying with a loud voice. Fear God, and give glory to him: for the hour of his judgement is come: and worship him that made heaven, and earth,and the sea, and the fountains of the waters.” (Revelation 14: 6-7)
“And I looked, and behold a white cloud, and upon the white cloud one sat like unto the Son of man, and having on his head a golden crown, and in his hand a sharp sickle. And another angel came out of the temple, crying with a loud voice, to him that sat on the cloud. Thrust in thy sickle and reap: for the harvest of the earth is ripe. And he that sat on the cloud thrust in his sickle on the earth: and the earth was reaped” (Revelation 14:14-16)
“And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away: and there was no more sea. And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall l be with them, and be their God. And God shall wipe all tears from their eyes: and there shall be no more death,neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold I make all things new. And he said unto me. Write: for these words are true and faithful. And he said unto me, It is done. I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of water of life freely. He that overcometh will inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son.(Revelation 21: 1-7)
“And the word of the Lord came unto me saying, Son of man, what is that proverb that ye have in the land of Israel, saying, The days are prolonged, and every vision faileth? Tell them therefore, Thus saith the Lord God; I will make this proverb to cease, and they shall no more use it as a proverb in Israel; but say unto them, The days are at hand, and the effect of every vision. For there shall be no more any vain vision nor flattering divination within the house of Israel. For I am the Lord: I will speak, and the word that I shall speak shall come to pass; it shall no more be prolonged: for in your days, O rebellious house, will I say the word and will perform it, saith the Lord God”.
“Again the word of the Lord came unto me, saying, Son of man, behold, they of the house of Israel say, The vision that he seeth is for many days to come, and he prophesieth of times that are afar off. Therefore say unto them, Thus saith the Lord God; there shall none of my words be prolonged anymore, but the word which I have spoken, shall be done, saith the Lord God”
Ezekiel 12: 21-28.
LAST WORDS OF THE PREACHER TEACHING THAT EVENING (TAKEN FROM A TAPE RECORDING)
“It is time for the bride……Do not forget what God has said to you. Do not give up on the word. Stand on it. Live on it. Eat the word even as Ezekiel speaks about it. Let it be real in your life. Sometimes it is all we have to stand on, but when we know it is God, it is everything”.
THE PREACHER CLOSED FOR PRAYER AFTER SPEAKING THE ABOVE WORDS. AS THE CONGREGATION BECAME QUIET AND BEFORE PRAYER BEGAN, I BEGAN SPEAKING IN THE “TONGUE” PERHAPS FOR 1 MINUTE. AFTER I HAD FINISHED, THE PREACHER GAVE THE FOLLOWING INTERPRETATION.
“Yes, I have spoken to you. I have spoken to you. I have spoken to you about this church. Yes, I have spoken great things that are going to happen here. I am not returning that word back to my being, but I am sending it out to encourage you. Not to give up on the vision I have given you, but to keep reaching out. For surely it shall come to pass. Keep reaching out. I want to do a new thing. Yes, there has been a shaking, but that has been part of my work in order that my vision is accomplished. Keep reaching out for I shall do a great new thing. That which I have spoken, that which I have said, shall come to pass. Though there be hard times, there may be hardship, and you will say, Why is there lack, You must remain faithful. Remain faithful for that which I have told you to do. Blessings shall come. Surely you will see the vision accomplished in your life. I have destined this church. I have destined it to go forward. Yes, it shall do just that, saith the Spirit of the Lord; For that which I have spoken unto my apostle shall be accomplished in the life of this body”.
The final poem in this book was given at another church meeting one evening and with a different visiting preacher.I was standing in the congregation with everyone else, following the end of the teaching and as the preacher was closing for prayer. She repeated the name of Jesus several times as we all stood quietly with heads bowed. She then began to speak the words of the poem. As she spoke, due to the things that had happened to me at the church in recent months, it suddenly seemed that God was speaking to me directly, for the words she spoke were plucking recent thoughts from my mind almost word for word. After hearing the first 5 or 6 sentences, a personal physical experience occurred and I did not hear the remainder of the poem. I did not think any further on this incident at the time, except perhaps that I had heard God correctly after all.On visiting the church the following week, I noticed there were audio tapes for sale of the meeting at which this incident occurred. I purchased one of these and discovered that another person had an experience that evening which had started just as the poem came abruptly to an end as the tape ran out, although I believe the poem went on further. Nevertheless, what was recorded, was a perfectly complete poem.
The teaching topic that night, was “Changing into Christ’s Image & End Time Anointing”
Whilst I am a little sceptical of physical experiences that occur in charismatic churches. When I review in hindsight what occurred that evening, and try and cast doubt on the experience and consider that I may have “brought it on” subconsciously myself in some way, I cannot conclude absolutely that this was the case. I was not seeking an “experience”, nor could I control the timing. As I listen to the tape, I can be heard in the background being affected in some way, just at the point where it says “but I speak unto you”. I do not even remember those words being spoken. Can this be contrived? Even if it were contrived, how could it be that I have a partially prepared book of poems about life, some of which are a similar style to the one God “appears” to have given to me?
For there are those that stand, and hear me this day
That I have spoken to in times past, and even would say
“Oh, it cannot be I, it cannot be me,
Perhaps that one, or this one, or even he,
But it cannot be me.
For I know not how, how I can do, what I’m hearing you say.
I have not the ability, nor do I have the training or skill
So it must be someone else that you speak of, and yet,
I still, I still hear what you say.
But God, it cannot be, that you speak to me this day
For surely it must be someone else, that has greater ability
But I the Spirit of Truth would say,
Child, it’s been you all the way
I’ve not spoken to the other, or to him I would have
But I have spoken to you, and told you this day,
That there is a call for you to go forth
Proclaiming my Word, establishing the decrees of me
That the world, that is dying, that they might see,
The light, the illumination, of the Gospel,
Of the message of my Son,
That dwells within thee.
If I wanted the scholar, if I wanted the one that was wise,
I would have spoken to him myself…
I would not have told you, of my desire, for them.
But I speak unto you.
That you might know, that it is I,
The Holy One of Israel.
The ability is within me, the choice is mine, do you not see?
And it is I that have spoken, not unto them,
But unto thee….
Recognise this night, that it was I that spoke unto thee
And do not hesitate on the call that is upon thee.
Do not hesitate to proclaim the word of my Truth
The Truth that I have placed upon thee….
If God is with me, He will see to it that this book and others are widely published, for what I “hear” from God and His “Word” is not what I clearly hear from the Church. We should all be aware that we need to read the whole bible ourselves and not rely wholly on others to teach us. For the Holy Spirit has been sent specifically for the purpose of teaching us individually.I also “hear” that we, as a body of people “the church”, also known as “the bride” of Christ, should pray for the perfection of our faith and insight as to how we make ourselves ready for His return, and to actively and fervently pray for His return. We have more control than we think. When our desire for Christ’s return is truly active, then his return will be near.Please read Genesis 11: 1-9 to see how strong a body of people can be when united and in agreement on a matter.When you read it, consider that God was concerned because the people were unified and that even HE would not be able to restrain them. So he scattered them and destroyed their unity of language, for they were a violent people. We are still, unless we know Christ and are filled with the Holy Spirit.Christ’s prayer to God, spoken prior to His crucifixion and related in John 17, speaks of us all becoming at one with Him and God in love and peace. Through that unity, even now, when we are in agreement on a matter, He has given us power to receive our requests in prayer.His desire is to bring us to that unity, but under the Lordship of Christ, where we will place love and compassion for others first. Rather than use the power for our own selfish and violent ends, as in the times of Babel.
(Genesis 11: 1-9)
And the whole earth was of one language and one speech. And it came to pass, as they journeyed from the east, that they found a plain in the land of Shinar; and they dwelt there. And they said one to another, Go to, let us make brick, and burn them thoroughly. And they had brick for stone, and slime had they for mortar. And they said, Go to, let us build us a city and a tower, whose top may reach unto heaven; and let us make us a name, lest we be scattered abroad upon the face of the whole earth. And the LORD came down to see the city and the tower, which the children of men builded. And the LORD said, Behold, the people is one, and they have all one language; and this they begin to do: and now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do. Go to, let us go down, and there confound their language, that they may not understand one another’s speech. So the LORD scattered them abroad from thence upon the face of all the earth: and they left off to build the city. Therefore is the name of it called Babel; because the LORD did there confound the language of all the earth: and from thence did the LORD scatter them abroad upon the face of all the earth.
As God has given us such power when we are united and in agreement, so we may pray for Christ’s return. You will notice in the following bible verse that the incense is mixed in the golden censer together with our prayers. The incense, and our prayers, are then poured onto the earth. This triggers lightening, thunders, and a great earthquake. These things are the final prelude to the last troubles predicted in the bible and Christ’s return. If you look into your heart and do not desire His return as completely as you might like. That you detect a reluctance in your heart for Christ to come because there are things you want to do, or see, and you don’t want it all to end just yet. Then think on the horrors of war, sickness, violence and the broken innocence of children for a moment, and endeavour to trust that what God has in store for us in the new Heaven and Earth, will far exceed any pleasures or joys we may be receiving now. Even the joys we have today are marred, for every second of every day, others are suffering while we laugh. While some may eat caviar or chicken, others eat rats or have nothing. If you are young and healthy and you are reading this book, you may not think that death and sickness are a reality in your life, but they are, they may even occur to you today. We have no control over such things, except through the relationship we take time to develop with God, while we are alive now. You must prepare and develop this today, while it is still called today (Hebrews 3:7-15). “Wherefore (as the Holy Ghost saith, To day if ye will hear his voice, Harden not your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness:When your fathers tempted me, proved me, and saw my works forty years. Wherefore I was grieved with that generation, and said, They do alway err in their heart; and they have not known my ways. So I sware in my wrath, They shall not enter into my rest.) Take heed, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief, in departing from the living God. But exhort one another daily, while it is called To day; lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulnessof sin. For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence stedfast unto the end; While it is said, To day if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts”. Begin by praying privately to God, even if you do not go to Church immediately, you will have made a start and God will show himself to you, if you really seriously want to know and experience His presence. He is Present.
Revelation 8: 1 - 5
“And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour. And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets. And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne. And the smoke of the incense, which came with the prayers of the saints, ascended up before God out of the angel’s hand. And the angel took the censer, and filled it with fire of the altar, and cast it into the earth: and there were voices, and thunderings, and lightnings, and an earthquake”.
“And this shall come to pass
You will diligently obey
the voice of the Lord you God”
Again the word of the LORD came unto me, saying, Son of man,speak to the children of thy people, and say unto them, When I bring the sword upon a land, if the people of the land take a man of their coasts, and set him for their watchman: If when he seeth the sword come upon the land, he blow the trumpet, and warn the people; Then whosoever heareth the sound of the trumpet, and taketh not warning; if the sword come, and take him away, his blood shall be upon his own head. He heard the sound of the trumpet, and took not warning; his blood shall be upon him. But he that taketh warning shall deliver his soul. But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman’s hand.
So thou, O son of man, I have set thee a watchman unto the house of Israel;
Therefore thou shalt hear the word at my mouth, and warn them from me.